The self destructive “act”


“The “act” is what you go to when you are down and unhappy. And for me, a sense of “I can do it by myself what do I need other people for” becomes the negative emotion that crawls into my mind and plants itself. We all have an act.

It’s unhealthy. It’s destructive. It’s counter productive. It’s painful.”

-The better man project-

I don’t know if we all have an act, but I can tell you, I most certainly do. I’ve been going through some stuff lately and after I read this I realized that I have been going to my act constantly over the last two weeks. And yes, it is unhealthy and destructive.

Then I realized (what I probable already knew) that I can choose to move on. It’s not an easy choice. It’s like you are in your comfort zone, wrapping your sadness around you like a comfy blanket. You know that you would have to face your fears, and it’s going to be cold without your blanket, but you also know that the sooner you do it, the less damage you are going to do to yourself.

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So....I really believe that I’m not the only person feeling this way. Like Lucius Annaeus Seneca  put it: "If one does not know to which port one is sailing, no wind is favorable." And that's exactly my problem...I have no idea where I want to be. I’m content in the moment, but is constantly restless about the future. I have too much of a hunger for success and fulfillment to just leave it there, but never in my life have I had a clear picture of where I want to be. Therefore I want to make life about the journey. I want to appreciate life for what it is, and not let the small things pass me by without noticing them. For the "where do I want to be?"...maybe I will find out along the way.
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